monologue #34: fin.

July 31, 2009 § 4 Comments

Anyway last night I was dreaming of the marching ants, they were talking about some disaster that will be coming soon. But, I woke up before they were explaining more. Seems weird? But, that’s the  truth. Anyway, I can’t stand not to cry while listen to this song,

“On Again Off Again”

Sean Lennon

And just as the sun sets
Just as we will forget these precious moments when another day is through
And just as the moon knows
It cannot always glow through every evening
Some days you will find me sleeping
Cause I’m on again and off again
I never told you I never will
Cause I’m on again and off again
If I can’t hold you somebody will
Love is like the ocean forever in motion forever changing never twice the same
You may miss me one day
You may wish you hadn’t stayed
You may forget me
You may never let me go
Cause it’s on again and off again
I never told you I never will
Cause it’s on again and off again
If I can’t hold you somebody will
On again and off again
I never told you I never will
Cause I’m on again and off again
If I can’t hold you somebody will


Yes, somebody will.


be calm

July 30, 2009 § 4 Comments

For the last post and also this I don’t want to give them the monologue tag, I don’t think I want to count them, just put it as the intermezzo. I was too emotional, childish, and selfish. I have to admit it.

By the way today I have learned something, not even a new thing, just some kind of mind rehearsal.

Today I learned that to miss someone really bad doesn’t always mean to get mad and be sad, I have grown up since our last encounter. I see life as a fun puzzle to complete.

To know that he is fine, it is enough for me. I believe he will.

Then, I can’t take it anymore

July 29, 2009 § Leave a comment

I knew someone who (often) visited my blog I saw his/her facebook page by clicking one of the visitor according to the Referrer Stats Wrap Up. Then, Goddamit that he/she must be able to do the otherwise.

In the mean time, if you read this post, I’ll only say, “Sorry, I miss you somehow. Would you just stop to ignore me?”

monologue #33: Golden Silvers

July 29, 2009 § Leave a comment

I would like to introduce you to,

Golden Silvers,

Golden Silvers

Golden Silvers? Who are they?

For me, they are the latest London good (or maybe great) band. The first time I heard their single (even though it wasn’t their first single I’ve listened to), “Another Universe” ,  it’s blowing my mind up with some kind of weirdo imagination. I imagined of the kingdom in outer space. But, it’s so whatever ya, you may download their EP via 4shared, through this link. By the way,  I couldn’t mention any similiar artist with them. Because sometimes, they sound like sort of middle 60’s classic musician, but sometimes they also sound as modern as Klaxons. At least for me.

monologue #32: ‘do not want to’ or ‘can not to’?

July 28, 2009 § Leave a comment

My friend, also the most wise man I have ever met,  Dexon Pasaribu posted it at his notes:

“mau ngomong aja berbelit-belit,

mau berbelit-belit aja banyak alasan.”

Okay, that’s it, I’m done.

Dexon Pasaribu

Dexon Pasaribu

monologue #31: ‘gossip girls’ is only the minifigue

July 26, 2009 § 2 Comments

Gossip Girls, It tells you how scary life is and that’s the fact. No one can resist it. No surprised great numbers of people love it. Even some of my friend can’t stand to wait for each next coming up episode or they’re dying to own the DVD series. But, that isn’t what I’m going to talk about.

Since I trapped inside Dengue Fever thing, I found that life have scared me enough. Especially the way everyone talk about you, specifically talk about something which related to you. There are only two people whom I told about this Dengue Fever, Bucil and Devina, and then I wrote on my blog (which I still think that no one will read, except Yunda until now). But then some of my college mate texted me (right at that day I told Bucil and Devina) to cheer me up or just to mention that they’re very sorry to hear what happened to me.  I am still wondering, how come they knew it. Somebody must have spoken about it. I don’t think I was somebody important enough to mention inside anyone’s conversation. Don’t you just curious how come they knew it? Yes I do.

Actually I was so worry and I am still so worry. It’s only some kind of iceberg. All we can see is only the top of it. How about the bigger part? How about other people? What were they talking about? Were they smiling at me because they wanted to or because they were hiding some clever less conversation behind me? I keep on questioning.

Maybe one day, I shall pass the street, and then one of their kids will see me. They will recognize from their mother photograph collection. They also read some stories about me in their mother’s diary, an embarrassing one. Okay that’s it, did you get me buddy? Someone who didn’t meet you before have already made their own judgment or at least describes yourself with some concepts inside their mind. It will make me sick to think about it. Anyway, I couldn’t think about any other option as an example, except that one.

Dear people, I don’t know what I should say about. I feel naked to know such as this thing. Most of all,  I wasn’t and I won’t be begging any sympathy.

monologue #30: Oh Dengue Fever!

July 24, 2009 § 2 Comments

It is the third time, I suffered Dengue Fever. It’s sucks!

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